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by Claire20. October 2014 18:20
Hi this is Bear,
 
I started writing this as an email to Tom, whose loved one is a survivor, but as Claire is feeling a bit under the weather I thought I would step in and make it a blog for all the Bears. Husbands, lovers, brothers, sisters, children and friends who are helping a brave lady through this terrible time in their lives.
 
And there it is. The first thing to point out,  we always say “terrible time”, but the most important thing is to make it the greatest time, none of us know how long we may be given on the earth and we are all, after all “terminal”. So Claire and I have tried in everything, to make the demands of canSer fun and exciting but I feel that the best advice I could give, is to look at life within simple elements.
 
The most important thing is to have a plan. We created the ten point plan on day 3 of diagnosis and so far although the components have changed the plan is still the same (http://www.triplenegative.co.uk/tenpointplan.aspx ). Having a plan gives you strength and helps to adjust as better treatments evolve.
 
Then you have to LIVE. It can be easy for canSer to consume. For every thought and action to be related to the disease. Whilst you are fighting, you have life and the opportunity to do what you can to make sure that you drain every drop from that life. Leave no regrets and live with canSer as a perceived issue don’t live a life of canSer.
 
Live in gratitude for all things. I know that platitudes are painful, but we both truly believe that life is not measured by the breaths you take but the moments that take your breath away. We have been so blessed, in love and friendship, in the opportunities we have had and the life we have been able to live. Things that for many who live until 90 will never be achievable. Every breath of wind on a sunny day, the kindness we see around us, all of these things help us to face every day with love and light.
 
And finally – don’t compare. Never look at statistics they mean nothing. If 1 person out of 100 survives then that is 100% survival for that person. Be that person. canSer is the disease, which we try and classify, but we should be looking at every patient and as far as I know everyone is different -so never compare.
 
I hope that in some small way this helps. I wish you all love and never forget that we are million strong and that the medical world is changing quickly. In as little as two years we could have a cure – let’s all make sure we are here to see that day.
 
Bear
 

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Off again...

by Claire14. October 2014 11:08

 

I haven’t been ignoring you but I have been having fun... again. Even amidst all the drama we have plans and I aim to keep hold of those for as long as I can.

Pete and I had planned to visit friends in Ireland this weekend and the booking had been in place for months. I was worried that things would clash but even if they did i would’ve moved them in order to visit our dear friends.

Pete and I had a long weekend in Cork and were treated like royalty. We laughed, danced, ate (a lot) and drank...Each day was different and on Sunday we drove to the beautiful Inchydoney beach and stayed at the beautiful spa there. Oh it was blissful. Yesterday we flew home and as ever reluctantly said goodbye to our wonderful friends.

Friday morning whilst at the airport over breakfast Pete and I got chatting about what to do next. I had already been in contact with Professor Vogl in Frankfurt regarding having TACE. It had been pencilled in for Wednesday 15th, tomorrow. I wanted Pete to email as he is German and to tell him it wouldn’t be feasible because of timings etc, but having spoken to my friends last week and also because I am acutely aware that I really need to get some treatment started Pete said we must go.

He checked with his work diary and made so many changes and that was it I started booking the Eurotunnel and hotels. Emails exchanged between Pete and Prof Vogl and we have agreed that I will be there tomorrow morning at 7am to see him and have treatment that same day.

Right... it’s all a whirlwind and whilst I have an hour before we leave I decided to update the blog.

I feel really weird right now. I have been contacting many clinics and having many email exchanges and I believe that whilst I can I should. The worry of logistics and money are always there and the upset this is causing Pete really worries me. I wish it was different but I have to try. Things will fall into place.

So this is how it stands. Today we leave and drive to Frankfurt. Tomorrow morning I have TACE then we drive to Belgium for an overnight before driving back to the Eurotunnel to get back to the UK.

 

Friday I have booked to see Dr Julian Kenyon on the referral of Dr Nesselhut to discuss Photodynamic therapy. We have heard a lot about and my pal Peter Trayhurn had good results in his lungs with this treatment. I think it is definitely worth a consultation. Julian actually said to get an appointment for Friday, on his day off to get this sorted. I called this morning and have booked for 11am in Twyford.

Next Monday I have an appointment at the Churchill hospital to have glomerular filtration rate which is apparently to see the functioning of my kidneys. Eh? I contacted the secretaries at the hospital who told me this in preparation for having the carboplatin chemo on the NHS. OK right. Well I will go for that even if I won’t be starting that imminently. I am booked and have signed the consent for carboplatin and gemcetibine chemo but I may postpone for a few weeks.

At the beginning of November I have DC therapy booked at Doc Nesselhuts and may also squeeze in more TACE with Prof Vogl AND even have insulin potentiation therapy with Dr Seibenhuner. I have emailed Dr Seibenhuners clinic to find out more but as yet haven’t had a reply.

After that I may decide to go for NHS chemo. I think it could be a good way to go for a short while...

Next Wednesday i am booked for the immunotherapy vaccine at the London Clinic and think it could be good to still give that a go.. Another hole in my arm but what the heck. On that same day I am also booked at another clinic in London to have a discussion about having Mebendazole prescribed.

It all sounds mad but maybe this combination could be good.

I am still waiting for a reply from St Barts but just now had an email from the secretary at the Churchill hospital who says she had a contact at the gamma knife department at St Barts who says they will be in contact soon. Not soon enough for my liking... get these buggers out of my head!

I feel actually a lot better in many ways but worse in others. Over the weekend my cough was annoying to say the least but then it turned into an actual infection on Sunday night. I actually feel better coughing up phlegm than I do just having a dry cough.

I feel less sketchy than in my head. I definitely felt like I had cognitive difficulties the week before but now I have clarity and can think of what I want to say. I am a little dazed with the steroids I take but I am managing them well. I will soon change the dose again as suggested by Dr Oliveros.

So that’s where we are. By the end of this week Pete and I will need to catch up on Strictly Come Dancing and The X factor and hopefully normality will resume... sort of. For Pete this is a nightmare. We are creatures of habit and nothing feels right. All we have is each other but with me having symptoms and feeling constantly emotional it is the hardest thing for him to deal.

Tempers flare and emotions pour... I find it hard not feel guilty and wish that every day could be different. I can’t and I refuse now to try to change that. I have to do this and try. I can still be canSer free and I just want to prove that.

 

I have taken the big job of contacting all my current clients that are booked in my diary and have told them honestly that i will not be working. My job is to get better and when I get more time at home I will return to exercise and more meditation. I long to feel well and eat better and live cleanly. I am not moaning about the food I have been eating recently. I feel nourished and actually have a huge appetite which I think is great. I put on 3 pounds over the weekend and I don’t care!

I have tried to balance my diet this morning by having a veggie smoothie, an alkalising lemon drink and bravo probiotics yoghurt with fruits. A good start I think!

My bags are packed and my kitty is being cared for by wonderful friend Sarah once again. I don't know what I would do without her. Hopefully everything will go smoothly over the next few days...It’s going to be an experience that’s for sure...

I’ll keep everyone updated.

Light and Love. XX

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Good news re gamma knife and now the next step...

by Claire9. October 2014 17:22

I waited patiently Tuesday with no reply from Dr Oliveros regarding the result of the MDT in London. That was a first for me! By Wednesday I was getting a little worried but for once didn't feel the need to hound the department. 

My patience paid off as I got the call I was waiting for. Dr Oliveros said that Dr Plummer at St Bart's had agreed to give me the gamma knife treatment under the NHS! Result!

She said that my notes were being sent over to him and I should hear from him within two weeks... Two weeks? Ok not to panic. I kinda thought I would be hearing sooner than that. She said if I hadn't heard by then to contact her and she will chase up.

 

We discussed  the steroids I am taking and she said I could reduce right down after five days.. Good. I feel very bizarre on them. Or maybe it's the concoction of codeine, paracetemol and steroids. The cough is my main annoyance at the moment. 

She asked how my appointment went with Prof Harris and she could see that I had consented to chemo. 

She seems like a really nice doctor. 

What she doesn't know is that in the meantime another canSer friend has emailed me and told me about nano knife. A private treatment available here in the UK. My friend had given me the contact details and I didn't hesitate to call. The secretary adviced me to get a copy of my report and send to Professor Leen at the Princess Grace hospital so she could show him before he goes on holiday.

Last night I had a Skype chat with some friends from New Zealand who now live in Frankfurt. They gave me invaluable advice on treatments such as TACE as well as advising me on IPT with a Dr Seibenhuner. It seems quite intense but if I can coordinate everything it could be a really great way to 'go hard' combining all treatments including DC therapy with Dr Nesselhut. I feel very lucky but now have to try to coordinate as much as possible in the diary.They advised me that combining such things as radiation with other treatments releases antigens and can work synergistically.

Dr Nesselhut mentioned having PDT- photodynamic therapy and mentioned contacting Julian Kenyon here in the UK. I have done that today. It's all worth investigating.

So now it's back to waiting but also deciding our next step. I won't rule out chemo as I am better off having something that I know could mop up the cells. I just want to consider the side effects such as numbness in my hands.

 So that's the update for now.... 

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Good news re gamma knife and now the next step...

by Claire9. October 2014 17:22

I waited patiently Tuesday with no reply from Dr Oliveros regarding the result of the MDT in London. That was a first for me! By Wednesday I was getting a little worried but for once didn't feel the need to hound the department. 

My patience paid off as I got the call I was waiting for. Dr Oliveros said that Dr Plummer at St Bart's had agreed to give me the gamma knife treatment under the NHS! Result!

She said that my notes were being sent over to him and I should hear from him within two weeks... Two weeks? Ok not to panic. I kinda thought I would be hearing sooner than that. She said if I hadn't heard by then to contact her and she will chase up.

 

We discussed  the steroids I am taking and she said I could reduce right down after five days.. Good. I feel very bizarre on them. Or maybe it's the concoction of codeine, paracetemol and steroids. The cough is my main annoyance at the moment. 

She asked how my appointment went with Prof Harris and she could see that I had consented to chemo. 

She seems like a really nice doctor. 

What she doesn't know is that in the meantime another canSer friend has emailed me and told me about nano knife. A private treatment available here in the UK. My friend had given me the contact details and I didn't hesitate to call. The secretary adviced me to get a copy of my report and send to Professor Leen at the Princess Grace hospital so she could show him before he goes on holiday.

Last night I had a Skype chat with some friends from New Zealand who now live in Frankfurt. They gave me invaluable advice on treatments such as TACE as well as advising me on IPT with a Dr Seibenhuner. It seems quite intense but if I can coordinate everything it could be a really great way to 'go hard' combining all treatments including DC therapy with Dr Nesselhut. I feel very lucky but now have to try to coordinate as much as possible in the diary.They advised me that combining such things as radiation with other treatments releases antigens and can work synergistically.

Dr Nesselhut mentioned having PDT- photodynamic therapy and mentioned contacting Julian Kenyon here in the UK. I have done that today. It's all worth investigating.

So now it's back to waiting but also deciding our next step. I won't rule out chemo as I am better off having something that I know could mop up the cells. I just want to consider the side effects such as numbness in my hands.

 

So so that the update for now.... 

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I didn't win the lottery.... No surprise there then!

by Claire7. October 2014 16:54

 

I didn’t win the lottery....No surprise there then. My luck hasn’t changed. Or has it?

It has been a weekend of tears, and love and support and so many emotions I don’t no where to begin. Pete and I decided that we would have a weekend of not getting out of bed. That lasted all of about 2 minutes. As usual we couldn’t help ourselves especially as the weather ended up being really lovely and I always feel that we should at least get out in the day light whilst the weather permits. We did have plenty of time to relax and although sleep was a bit a hit and miss we both felt relaxed. I had one good night one bad but I was pleased that I got any. I have been walking around in a blur. Now this could be down to the fact I am on a cocktail of steroids and also codeine, in the hope that my headaches will pass as well as the cough. Interestingly the cough is annoying me more.

This morning Pete and I went to the hospital this time to collect my CT scan results. As Pete called it, Part Deux.

I don’t know how I thought it would go but I didn’t have any feelings either way about it. I think that I thought things couldn’t really get any worse. And they haven’t really.

The good news is there are no new ones in my bones or abdomen and that the ones that are in my lymph nodes and lungs are actually a mixed bag.

The ones that have been blasted with radiofrequency have actually got smaller and that seems to be looking good.

The ones in my left lung have stayed the same.

Then there are new ones appearing albeit very small in my lung. There is also pericardial effusion around my heart.

The right hilar lymph node is necrotic but they cannot tell if that is because it is growing quickly. In fact all of the ones in my lymph nodes are a bit bigger.

Prof Harris has suggested that I get the gamma knife treatment all sorted and then that should make that better. There is of course no way of knowing if that means they won’t come back but he suspects we can keep on top of it. He does think we should opt for a systemic treatment like chemo but he said is up to me. He suggested getting started on something like carboplatin and gemcetibine and we thought starting the consent forms was the best way to go especially as it will take about three weeks to organise and by then my brain treatment should be sorted.

 

In the meantime Pete and I already have a plan hatched to go to Frankfurt for TACE by Prof Vogl. Since getting home I have had a stream of emails from my Europeans friends and they have been advising me that timing it with treatments to Dr Nesselhut would be highly synergistic as well combining it with insulin potentiated therapy. I think this could be a really good route to take. We just need to organise that now too.

As expected I am still waiting for results from the MDT that occurred today at St Barts. We told Prof Harris that Dr Oliveros had said we can only have it done if there are three tumours of less. He couldn’t believe it. Prof Harris has changed and I believe it is because he has seen so many changes in the cancer world. He is so much more open and friendly now too.

As much as I don’t relish going on chemo it is definitely something I would do but I will lean for TACE first. I don’t want to spend any more money but I do want to try other things and I do want to give it my all.

I am bit disappointed that I haven’t yet had a call but I trust that Dr Oliveros will call when the time is right.

I suggested to Prof Harris about a trial that is happening at St Bart’s that my friend has told me about. It is using immunotherapy and has been raved about apparently. He thinks I won’t be able to get on it because I have already had immunotherapy but he said it is worth a try.

I think I will continue with the immunotherapy at the London Clinic. I still think that things are going well in that department. The thing is if these brain tumours hadn't appeared it would still be going in the right direction... sort of...

I have been cancelling clients today and been making a plan for taking more time for myself... The thing is until I get an answer from Dr Oliveros I still feel aloof.

 I felt really loved today at hospital. Pete was surprised at what staff in the pharmacy and the nurses who work with Prof Harris were all like with me. The thing is I have been going there a long time. They all bent backwards for me and made my life as easy as possible. I am feeling really loved.

 

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Boo... brain tumours...

by Claire3. October 2014 16:42

 So I went to the hospital. Pete came with me and was really sweet and asked if he could come into the MRI room with me. Have I mentioned I hate MRI scans? He looked at me the whole time through the little gap.

I then had a CT scan. The guy was really interested in a story that Pete told him and I don’t know if that was a good thing or not but it took our minds off what we were there for. Then, on our way to the CT scan they said I was to be seen in triage. Oh god. I knew exactly what that meant. That meant they needed to see me to give me bad news....My heart sank and I felt dizzy with sadness.

It was all a bit of blur with my mind racing and then putting on a brave face I was told that there were four tumours in my brain. Oh B*****ks, for want of a better word!

A few things were asked but I was told that I had to go on dexamethasone that night and to continue taking it the next day. Did we have any questions? Um.......? It was all a bit too soon for that.

What we should have asked was 'did I really need to take the night time tablets as they make me frantic?'The answer should have been yes, or alternately they should have perhaps pointed out that it was necessity to take those tablets.

I woke up with such a terrible headache and found out that I should have taken the tablets because the headaches were so terrible due to the inflammation that the MRI caused. Thanks guys for telling me! But then I guess they expect  normal people to follow their instructions. Have they met me before? Ha-ha.

We came home and Pete was very clear on it all being ok. He said that there is nothing new going on there. It has been like it for six weeks, there is no need to worry now. I know he is right and I know that nothing has changed. We just needed a plan. As always.

The next day I got a call at home and it was Emma, the lovely secretary from the NHS. She said that could I go to see Dr Oliveros at 4.40pm that day. Yes, absolutely. She told me where to go and I let Pete know. We got there at 4.40pm and was told there was a delay but that’s standard I guess when it’s late in the day.

By this time we were both in quite good moods, bizarrely enough. The news had sunk in and even though the meds make me feel manic I felt quite calm and I had spent the day on the sofa. However that wasn’t as much fun as I had hoped. Time was slowly passing and I just wanted to get on with something.

Dr Oliveros is lovely. Really happy, very explanatory and an all round nice girl. She explained my options. Firstly; surgery, secondly; gamma knife and thirdly; whole brain radiation. The first one, I can’t have. It can only be for someone with one tumour. The second is potentially an option although because I have four tumours I am outside the remit. Can you bloody believe it? However, Dr Oliveros is going to put an application in for consideration anyway. It would be done by a colleague of hers at St Barts, London. Even though she knows there is a chance it might not happen she still feels that we could just slip through the net.  Thirdly would be whole brain radiation. Now this doesn’t fill me with joy but I have spoken to someone who says it is potentially very good. The down side is cognitive issues as well as hair loss etc. The course would be for ten days and that is it. I would need a mask so I cannot move for about three minutes at a time.

So that makes me feel quite good. The fact that she is trying for what thinks would be a good option then getting me to sign the consent form for whole brain radiation just in case.

There was an option to say if we cannot get the gamma knife done because of it being over the limit of tumours, can we pay for it? Well if we must but come on! I tell you what; we pay for the first one then you pay for the others. Deal?

She did say a few things that worried me. She said that she was surprised I looked so well considering the swelling was so bad. The tumours are tiny, the biggest only being 1.5cm. It is the swelling that is causing the issues. She said also that this is very serious. Do you think we didn’t know that? We were just trying to make light of it whilst sitting there with her.

We came home and I have to say I do feel different. I don’t know if it because I have the knowledge that something is up or if because I am scared or just because....

I still don’t have the results for the CT scan as yet but I am due to see Prof Harris first thing Tuesday morning. That will then tell me what is going on everywhere else.

 

I went to see my acupuncturist today and we chatted about il2 injections and their purpose. He said that it is quite likely they are doing their job. This is something Pete has also said. He said that the injections were working so well that it is highly likely that is why there is so much swelling. Exactly what Mr G said. He said that the DC cells and the il2 were all having a positive effect (well and negative effect) on this.  Well that is good in a way but also not great for me, in others.

It’s all swings and roundabouts isn’t it?
I feel like I am chasing it around my body. And what about this blood / brain barrier? How did that all over of a sudden stop working?

The doc said we don’t know if there are more in there. I hope, of course, that there aren’t. I am assuming as the tumours are small and they haven’t been there that long.

So where does that leave me now? I guess that means we wait for more results.  In the meantime I will get more info from Prof Harris and then find out from Doctor Oliveros the next step. I have everything crossed that she can organise the gamma knife. It would mean less invasion of my brain!

In the meantime I have informed everyone who are involved.
Dr Nesselhut wants more info.

Prof Dalgliesh seems to think gamma knife is a great option and if they won’t do it for free here to go and see one of the best in the UK.

I have also contacted Prof Vogl, who does TACE (trans arterial chemo emobilisation) This can not only help the tumours in my lungs but all slow/stop the ones in my brain.

Today I have had a call from the London care oncology clinic who has said that I can have an appointment to discuss Mebendazole. Just because one element of treatment isn’t working doesn’t mean I should stop everything. Therefore I have to continue with my plans as before and investigate every avenue.

I feel better knowing what is wrong with me. I feel better having a plan and I also feel better on the whole. I do feel a bit sketchy but that could be the drugs. Bizarrely enough the drugs reduce inflammation as they are corticosteroids. This is again the body using my immune system to help heal me.

 

The support I have been given is overwhelming. I cannot thank everyone enough for their love, respect and drive that they have given to both Pete and I. I simply couldn’t have done it without Pete and he was scared too. Bears aren’t meant to be scared and he didn’t like it. I feel terrible knowing that everyone has to go through even more of this crappy stuff but I can’t help where it goes. I think I can, but I can’t.  I know mind over matter helps but who knows how this disease really works.

I have had over 3000 people look at my status on face book. That’s crazy and so lovely knowing that people really care. If I could thank you personally, I would.

So that’s that, the next chapter of this book. I have to keep going. There is no other option. It seems harsh to everyone involved and a real kick in the teeth but as I always say, ‘no one said it was going to be easy’. Damn right..... Anyway I have bought a lottery ticket tonight maybe my luck will turn!

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Headaches.....

by Claire1. October 2014 13:09

 

Today is the dreaded MRI and CT scan. Why dreaded? Well it’s obvious really...

I won't know the results for a few weeks but right now all I can think is, ‘Please, make this bloody headache go away!’ I am not so concerned about the cough, although maybe I should but I never expected to come back from my holidays feeling worse than when I went away.

All I keep thinking is that it could be anything. Headaches are caused by so many factors and this one keeps changing from the side of the head to on top of the head and so on.

I’d really like to know how to nip it in the bud....

The next two weeks are going to be long but onwards and upwards and if I can shake off this drowning feeling then all will be well.

X

 

 

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Better when I am not thinking about it....

by Claire29. September 2014 13:42

 

It’s been an up and downy few days. Ever since I got back I have continued to have head aches and whilst I don’t think there is anything serious to worry about I had to mention them to my oncologist.

I also mentioned this cough of mine. Prof Harris doesn’t think there is anything sinister in the cough but as expected says I have to bring my CT scan forward AND have an MRI scan. Boo!

I absolutely hate having MRI scans, mainly because I feel claustrophobic in the noisy tube. I know it’s not rational but then maybe it isn’t the fact that i am having a scan that scares me.

I completely understand why i have to have an MRI, I just don’t relish it.  Best to be sure though.

Saturday was a lovely day. I spent the day in London with my old school friend. We relaxed, had spa treatments and then went for a lovely lunch. Plans are already being made for the next trip...All the while I was there Pete slaved in the kitchen making foods that I can snack on and that are full of antioxidants. Love him.

 

I am struggling at the moment with letting you know how I am feeling. I feel confused. I feel so up and down that I don’t know myself. One moment I am feeling great, the next I feel rubbish, mostly I am feeling rubbish. I hate having nothing to report because I am so self involved and all consumed with myself. I want to be full of energy and loving life. And I do to some extent but when you have niggly little ailments such as headaches, they can really bring you down.

I go to bed with a headache, and then I wake up having visuals, the start of a migraine. I cannot explain it. I have back pain where I feel the headache is resonating from. It could be absolutely anything that’s causing it. Who knows what I am having pumped into my body? All I know is that once I have the scan results if it’s not the worst, then it can only get better.

I am better when I am not thinking about things. I am still struggling taking my meds and supps and I am really finding it hard to focus on the big things. They are more important to me than anything else. I just need to remember that.

 

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Deflated and unsure...

by Claire23. September 2014 21:46

Pete and I went to bed early last night. So early we had about 11 hours sleep! Boom! I love the Zum Lowen's beds. Dragging myself out of the warm and comfy slumber this morning I scooted to the clinic to have my bloods drawn ready for up and coming visits. I was due to return at 11am for the next hour long treatment but as they had time I had it all done at once.

I had a chat with the nurse whilst lying there. She was telling me how much easier things are now.e asked if I remembered last summer with all the Portuguese patients. Do I? Boy yes. It was so busy and many mistakes were being made.

I asked why it wasn't as busy now. She said it had calmed down since people had started abiding by their appointments. She said that for a shirt while people would stand there at the counter demanding an appointment. They had travelled from Portugal without having an appointment and cry until the doctor saw them. It's amazing what desperation does to one. The staff would start at 8am and finish at 8pm. I guess that's busy over there.

Thankfully peace had been restored. 

An hour or so later we met with Dr Nesselhut who was lovely as usual and this time had a doctor from Amsterdam sitting in with us.

We explained again the scan results and he seemed concerned by the necrotic ones that were active in my lymph nodes. He said that he would like/expect no changes so if the next scan still showed a lot of change then we need to let him know so that he can change our protocol. Pete mentioned the fact that I'd had head/neck ache for sometime and Nesselhut insisted on getting it checked out by way of bone scan. He said it is probably nothing but better to be sure... Not what I wanted to hear.

Pete also mentioned my cough and explained Prof Harris's thoughts on it. Nesselhut was less concerned but suggested codeine at night... Not sure why.

 A lot of conversation was banded about things that could be done and what was inbound. He talked a lot about anti pdl1, pd1 and more. We said we thought I had already had that. He said in the vaccination, yes, but not injected directly into me. He said the quantity required would result in the cost of £100,000! He suggests it works better because when administered in the vaccine we are just training the dc cells, whereas administering it into the body, it attacks the protein cloaking the canSer and therefore has a much better response. They have high hopes for this. 

Pete not knowing the price asked when we could start that treatment. Nesselhut said not yet then told him the price..... Jaws dropped. Let's hope I don't need that then!

Whilst chatting about triple negative Nesselhut said that they had amazing results for those who had not waited till they metastasised for dc treatment.

He says the success rate for those who have the treatment is 100% over 5 years. If only I knew about his work before the canSer had metastasised. 

For someone like me he said there was a 30-40% success rate over 5 years... Well I guess that's me in that 30-40% then!

This is great news for any TNBCers out there. It isn't the worst thing ever to have that diagnosis and despite needing funds if you can obtain them, then go for it. It'll save your life.

 

I had my vaccination intradermally and intravenously. My arm is currently as big as a balloon. The biggest reaction yet. I feel fine. I am longing to be at home but then who doesn't when you are sat at an airport. 

 

Thoughts have worried me this afternoon. I guess if I am being ever alert then I know in my gut that I should get my headaches checked out. If I am being less cautious then I want to wait.  I have neck ache. It feels like I need a bloody good massage. The thought of having an MRI scan fills me with dread. 

 

Whilst having a green tea this morning I suddenly felt sick and had to rush to the loo where sadly I vomited. What caused that? Don't know....

 

Last night I spent a little while trawling through FB, as you do. I saw a post on The Huffington Post. I'm not one to follow blogs, bizarrely enough on other canSer survivors, but this one caught my eye. I read it to Pete and we both cried. Not wanting to ruin it for you, the outcome isn't all happiness and joy but the power of the internet has meant her post has gone viral and her husband has written to thank everyone now that she is gone. I'm reading far too many posts of late of women dying before they are 40, not just of breast cancer but bowel cancer and more. 

Here's a link to Charlotte Kitleys' final blog that she wrote before she died;
http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/charlotte-kitley/bowel-cancer-charlotte-kitley_b_5836238.html

Followed by her husbands reply; Well, it's not quite the end...
http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/richard-kitley/well-its-not-quite-the-end_b_5855370.html

 

I don't think Charlottes' post was all doom and gloom but full of love, hope and happiness. I will take her advice and run with it.. I advise you to do the same.

 

Night all. Hopefully I'll be home soon tucked up in my favourite place with my favourite person plus the little furry one. 

 

Xx

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Flying visit to Duderstadt....

by Claire22. September 2014 15:26

Side effects have really been getting me down the last week. At least that's what I hope they are. A constant headache and that bloody nagging cough.

I have completed the il2 round 6 and the new imm101 jab has been gradually getting bigger and had now decided to get oozy. 

The weekend was lovely with friends visiting but prior to their arrival I just felt rubbish. I whined and moaned and despite wanting to do some gardening jobs I got myself on the sofa under the Bears orders. 

 The problem with ailments is never knowing for real what is causing them. As with all canSer patients their minds will run away with them. I have now decided to be logical and really think back as to when all these annoying side effects started. I think they could be an accumulation of things over the last few months. I also thought that the nausea I had been experiencing could be down to them too. I think I feel a bit better with the knowledge that although I feel sore throated and tired that it could all just a sign of things working.

We got up at 4am today to get to the airport for our morning flight to Hannover. It's been about ten weeks since we saw Dr Nesselhut last and I am ready for this round. I do know that tonight could be another night of fevers. My body has been going through it with all these infections and immune stimulating things going on. 

So today I have had zometa, il2, hyperthermia, Newcastle disease virus and air. A well as this I asked for my bloods to be taken for my next visit. I feel fine right now, if a little tired but I am ready for tomorrow's stint too.

 Pete is here with me, as usual and I am so pleased he is. The roads were horrific getting down here with traffic and roadworks. I aim to have an early snuffly night in the ultra comfortable beds at the Zum Lowen plus we have been given a room with a mahoosive bath! Whoop... A big soak in the tub! Falala!

We finish tomorrow at about lunchtime but our flight back isn't til 9pm.....

Until Wednesday.... Xx

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