Gosh I didn’t realise how long it has been since I blogged last. In my head I am journaling and blogging all the time as I have so many thoughts. It seems getting it down on ‘paper’ as it were, is not like it used to be.
I have had quite a good few weeks on and off. Ever since the weekend in Cornwall I have felt stronger and have been really putting on weight and exercising. Things were going well until I went to Germany last week.
It was a mixed week of treatment and chaotic events. We decided to drive to Germany as we figured we were going down to Frankfurt and then to East Germany. Not having really thought it through we set off Monday morning. It took us 9 hours to get there! As well as this poor Pete had come down with a fever and felt terrible. Within a day he had a massive cold sore on his face and then a really weird ankle pain had appeared. Since then his ankle is swollen and very sore. It’s a mystery but like a trouper he plodded on.
This was ok, as the next morning we didn’t have a really early start for Dr Seibunhuners except were given a room which couldn’t sleep in… It sounded like the lift was in the room with us. The next day we changed rooms…
I don’t look forward to Seibhuners. I don’t really like how it feels a bit unorganised. You’d think I would be used to this by now but I find it very disrupting. I had the usual hyperthermia, infusions of DMSO, B17 and artemesinin with IPT. This time my blood glucose went as low as 40. I could tell too as it had quite an effect on my bowels and I felt awful that night- flu like as before.
We chatted to Seibenhuner who is very hard to understand. He seems a bit crazy too…. We wanted to know about PDT and options for brain mets. We hit a brick wall really. I haven’t booked my next visit yet.
The next day after sleeping well in our new room we headed to see Prof Vogl at 8am. I got to see him first but as usual it was all very rushed. However the rest of the day wasn’t. I must have spent about 5 hours in total waiting around and that is not including the 3 hours of recovery time.
I sat freezing in a gown after an MRI for my procedure. I asked the Prof for lots of pain relief as it really hurt last time. He obliged but then it seemed he really did use all of his pressure and I have been left quite bruised this time. It’s that or I am sensitive at the moment.
After recovery where I felt off my head on the drugs they had given me I had to have a CT scan to check to see if I was ok and not bleeding. I sat for almost 3 hours waiting for a scan that took only minutes. I simply can’t stand it. I then saw the Prof again very briefly to tell me that the largest tumour has reduced again by about 10 per cent. Despite asking, he never gives me more information on the other tumours and the scan provided, I can’t do anything with. I asked about the brain mets and he said he could do TACE in the brain. Uh? How? But given very little info. He simply has given me another appointment to the same thing next time. I am feeling in the dark, despite asking the questions. How many treatments? My body has more than one tumour that needs to be treated. It’s a bloody mystery.
I have since getting back emailed many questions in the hope I will get some sense.
We left for Duderstadt to see Dr Nesselhut the next day. Arriving in the afternoon I had oncothermia, blood taking for testing before having more bloods taken for future visits and il2.
The next day I had the same thing except I couldn’t have the bloods taken as the results showed my haemoglobin is down to 8.9! I can only assume this is due the chemo in TACE. I saw Dr Nesselhut after and he was lovely as always. At least I get a conversation and compassion from him.
He told me of a new protocol combined with DC therapy that in the few people he has vaccinated has had remissions. He said he negotiated good prices and wants to use it on me next time.
I am currently trying to find out more about the drug he mentioned and will update you once I know more about it. I felt an instant rush of gratitude and felt quite overwhelmed. It was hard not to cry. Maybe this could be the hope and the change I need and then for all other TNBCers?
Having had a week away, Pete had said to book a few nights in Paris to have some fun after the gruelling week which had left me in pieces. I was not feeling well and really felt quite broken. Leaving Duderstadt quite late, the weather had become nasty, snowing heavily. Little did we know we were heading into traffic carnage. The motorway we headed onto had miles of stationary traffic and we luckily came off before we were stuck… Luckily is not the word I used when I saw the state of the untreated rural roads! Oh my goodness. It was horrendous. Both Pete and I were so scared especially when our car skidded all over the icy roads. In total there were 53 accidents in that area. The traffic on that motorway was more than 30 kms long and they were there almost all night. Poor things.
We spent hours getting only a few miles and realised we wouldn’t arrive in Paris until about 4am. Neither of us could do that. I called the hotel and pleaded with them to let the charge for that night go because of the extreme circumstances. The French guy said that he would and that we couldn’t check in until 3pm the next day. I thought it was a bit off but said fine. We then made our way to Metz and arrived late in the evening and found a hotel there for the night.
Pete at this point was wishing he hadn’t suggested the Paris addition to our trip. The next day we got up and headed to Paris, this time we were met with fog and snow and very icy roads…. Boo…
Arriving at the hotel we were informed that they kept the room for us all night and that we had to pay the full two nights stay. Honestly we just attract chaos and misery into our lives! This didn’t go down well with either of us and demanded to see the manager. I won’t go into detail at this point as to what happened but let’s just say I am still waiting for an email from the manager with a credit note for an extra nights stay as they wouldn’t give us a refund.
Hey ho… Moving on. We had a great time in the end in Paris. The Eiffel Tower is magical and the love and happiness overcame the events of the previous days.
Sunday we drove to Calais and got the train home. The weather was again very challenging but when we arrived home we were so relieved. I have since felt very nauseas and have been vomiting. I am gutted. I can only assume that it is the chemo and hope to overcome my light-headedness soon.
I have been emailing all the doctors giving them updates and asking advice. I am still booked for Eribulin later in February but really need to sort these bloods out and start to feel better first. I am doing what I can. I am eating the right foods (mostly) and have done some meditation and yoga and introduced green powders and a green juice into my day too. Let’s hope I recover soon! Please…..