Happy Valentine’s Day!

Happy Valentine’s Day!

I was greeted this morning by some lovely little gifts (the theme was hearts) from my Bear and the most beautifully written card. Bless him. He always makes such an effort. Sleep wasn’t his friend last night. It so unfair seeing him so concerned about everything but most of all about me. We talk often about not wanting to be alone in this life or the next but realise that one day it will happen (hopefully in many years to come) but all the same it is going to happen. We wonder how we will be able to find each other.. It might sound morbid discussing it but we all think it and maybe never discuss it-usually. I know this isn’t the tone of the blog you want on Valentine’s Day but this is how it manifested itself this morning for us. We have more love than we know what to do with – at times I honestly think I might suffocate from the cuddles and love- this is not a complaint of course. smiley-laughing.gif Every day it grows stronger and every day the fear of being alone grows bigger. Silly- worrying is like wishing for what you don’t want to happen and fear is such a negative emotion. Of course these chats and thoughts are often fleeting but still they are there, usually finished with a big snuffle and talk of everything’s going to be ok.

My day has been lovely, I have been working briefly today and for the first time in months did a facial. It’s such a lovely treatment but I do understand why the psychic lady warned me against offering many of these kinds of treatments due to the fact that they will deplete me and my energy. I feel great right now though and it’s like another little world inside my treatment room. I get all excited and start thinking about working full time again. I really feel there is a future; I just hope it is true.

Tonight we are not having any posh dinner or drink or anything, I am going to do Pete a lovely back massage and then I want him to have a big old soak in the tub to relax his weary muscles, then for some action on TV watching James Bond.. Well it’s kind of romantic?!*

Anyway I want to spread the love and did a little picture……..

Love you!

German Christmas.. I love an extra day of pressies. :)

Christmas Eve is the most important day of Christmas as this is when they celebrate.. So with Pete being half German today is a good day!!My mum arrived today with lots of luggage and pressies.. and we spent our day painting our nails as the Bear prepared for the big English Chrirtmas day.

I love the German heritage. For us, we sing carols, open a few pressies as well eat hot dogs with homemade potato salad just like his mum used to make! (of course I had tofu dogs! MMMM :/)

Today there has been a huge increase of support on Facebook. I am truly touched and the comments made, are wonderful. The messages from friends far away and friends who haven’t been in our lives for many years really makes me well up. But you know what, I receive messages telling me how inspirational and brave and so on, but the real inspirational and brave person is my Bear. My husband Pete created the website, he started the blog, he loves me like no other everyday and makes me feel like I’m the only one every day. He cooks like a masterchef, he warms and loves me like a big furry bear and he thinks about everyone before himself. He is the true inspiration. He is the one who gives me confidence and the drive to keep on going and he makes me believe I can do anything, including be cured of a terminal disease. I have to keep going and I have to keep having fun because life is better when we do things, for not just ourselves, but the ones we love and the ones we haven’t yet met but love you the same.

Today I am eternally grateful for still being well; (plus for the presents I got! Whoop- bring on tomorrow!) but most of all I am grateful to every single person that supports me, and to those who support my Bear. He deserves it more than anyone.. He’s my One.

Off to bed early.. Santas on his way! 🙂 Night!