Had an amazing night sleep…Today has been a day of organising myself and planning for the next week or so and can you believe preparing cards for Christmas! It has to be done at some point. 🙂
I have obviously been thinking about the things that happened in Germany. I am very excited by it all but still I have a mental battle at letting myself think 100% positively about it. I have the nagging fear that what if this,.. what if that? I know it’s wrong but if I let myself believe it is all going to be ok and it isn’t then I will be crushed. Also I know that if I trust myself and my heart that everything will be ok. It might not be all done and dusted immediately but I have to trust that all will be ok or I am just wishing for what I don’t want to happen.
I have been thinking long and hard about the book I have been reading ‘You can heal your life’ by Louise Hay. In it she describes how every ailment comes from our own thought processes somehow and could stem back to our childhood or way back when something must have created the patterns in which we act and think now. I mentioned the other day how I don’t have many memories from when I was a young child.. or so I thought.
I was having my heat treatment on Monday and whilst lying there lots of little thoughts of living in London, the house, the rooms, my family, the garden, my primary school and much much more came flooding into to my mind. I must have had them there all along and for whatever reason have always said I can’t rmember anything back then. It was like picturing it all like photos from the 70’s and early 80’s. My mum always sending me to fancy dress parties as a hula hula girl ( made from crepe paper) now this has always been one lodged in my mind but then a Christmas present I treasured; My Airhostess. Oh my I wanted to be one back then! 🙂 I actually felt relieved that I could remember lots and lots. I had a sense of a break through and with it came some thoughts that must have troubled me as a child. I don’t think much of them now but maybe as a small child I was upset by them and this has rendered resentment and illness for all these years.
Since this, I have been repeating the affirmation more and more; ‘ I lovingly release myself of the past, I fill my world with joy, I love and accept myself’. If Louise Hay is correct then letting go from these things will help heal me. I strongly urge anyone with any ailments to read her book. When reading the symptoms such as migraines, for example, it is amazing how much it links to patterns and thoughts that you have and makes you realise that everything is related to some emotional being within you.
Almost at the end of yet another week and I cannot believe how time flies.. Looking forward to seeing frineds this weekend. 🙂
I have lots of plans for pictures I want to draw. It seems everyone likes them. X