Isn’t it beautiful weather! I have been under strict instructions from the Bear that I am to sit in it and get my vitamin D boost. No arguing there. Today is glorious. He rang me on his way to work after going to the gym and suggested I do my ‘rituals’ outside today. So up I hopped and got my meditation mat, then did some yoga stretches followed by a kettle bell routine from YouTube. (Don’t I have the best husband in the world?) I am now full refreshed and soaking up the rays. It feels a bit weird though because there are other things I could be getting on with but i figured they will still be there tomorrow.
I have been a little bit productive though; sourcing builders, booking them in and so on. Since my treatment room is currently out of service it gives me the opportunity to get it sorted in there. I have been putting it off for ages.
Monday morning I was up with Pete. Now let me tell you, I hate getting up early! It was cold and dark but I got on a train London bound for an MRI scan of my brain at St Barts. As usual I was super early (Not one for being late if I can help it), however it was lucky I got there early seeing as the underground trains were all severely affected by a signalling failure at Edgware Road. I stopped for breakfast at Beppe’s Cafe ordering my usual green tea; he said in true Londoner style, ‘Your Barnet is growing back nicely!’ This tickled me pink. He asked how long it was since I saw him last and I said about a month. He remarked on how quick my hair was growing. Bless him. I had no idea he would remember me. That put a smile on my face.
As I was early there I thought I may as well check in for the scan. You never know they might see me early. Well I was seen early for the cannula to be put in then waited for about another hour before my MRI.
I was pleasantly pleased that I couldn’t hear a thing whilst having the scan and I thought I dealt with it quite well. I have no idea why I am claustrophic of that machine! Once done I hopped up and was back home in a few hours. No drama.
Whilst lazing around I have had a chance to think and I have been thinking about getting fitter and stronger. I have decided that getting fitter and stronger is a must, plus it also helps with the way I look and being a woman that feeling will always be there. I also want to do lots of drawing and more knitting. Having finished my second baby blanket, this time all alone, I want to do more! Back to the knitting shop i go for more colours of wool to choose from.
I have also been thinking about working a lot recently and having lots of new enquiries. I am such a lucky girl and I know this, and feel grateful every day that I don’t have to work presently, BUT, I don’t think I want to return to work either?! Is this terrible of me? I do feel guilty when Pete is working his toosh off and having such demands and stresses, but I really want to enjoy being at home when I am here and work hard at feeling good about myself inside and out. It’s mad to think that it is April already and that in only two months I will be forty. I plan on enjoying this summer.
I have been emailing with the secretaries at my hospital today. I am trying to organise a CT scan for the week after next as Dr Nesselhut wants to know what is happening before he does the next lot of treatment. I thought it was already being booked as I had asked in March. Anyway hopefully Ii will get the appointment I need in time for my next visit to Duderstadt. I have also just found out they are offering artemesinin, B17 and DMSO. They have confirmed it. This could be something I will add on if they say it is fine to do so.
Apart from that everything has been great. I haven’t experienced any more headaches or visuals or anything since I had that migraine last week. I think Pete was right when he said that it was probably one of the tumours being attacked after having nivolumab. I blinking well hope so! All I know is that i feel great. I am back down to St Barts Friday morning. I am assuming they will have results for me and then I know what happens next.
For me right now, I am longing to have a cuddle in the sun with my Bear and I hope he gets home earlier today. As its April the sun isn’t’ high enough in the sky yet and we lose the sunshine before Pete can get his dose of vitamin D.