Four days left…

I’ve had a lovely morning so far… I’ve done my morning rituals best I can whilst being away from home. Coffee enema, nebuliser, taken all meds and supps and more.

I am feeling pretty good. I am still avoiding green juices however the last few days I had an epiphany. In the place of juice I had been having bicarbonate of soda, lemon and olive oil water. Then one evening in St Tropez I felt overcome with nausea. Not very classy running to the toilets and throwing up!

Then I realised I bought a bottle of apple cider vinegar with me and had barely used it. Knowing the amazing benefits of Apple cider vinegar I have been having that with my meds and supps instead. So far so good. I don’t feel nauseas and I don’t have stomach upset… Maybe that’s what I needed. Apple cider vinegar is very alkalising and calming on the digestion.

I have continued however to have migraines. Now the neurotic part of me thinks, Oh God, could this be something more sinister. Then I think of all the triggers that could be setting them off and the list is extensive, caffeine, red wine, heat, sunshine, eye tiredness, stiff neck, lack of sleep, dairy products and more.. I can tick off all of those as possible factors to my head aches. So telling the neurotic me to back down then once I get home and realign my life then we shall see.

I made another batch of GcMAF yoghurt yesterday. Because of the heat here it’s process is complete much sooner than at home. This morning it looked like set yoghurt and smelt amazing. I am really loving this stuff. It’s in the fridge now and I will test it later with some berries.

Yesterday Pete and I decided to try something I had always wanted to do.. Paddle boarding. I was really nervous.. Lets face it I’m nervous about anything new. I wasn’t given any tips or assistance by the French guy renting out the boards and was pushed on my knees off into the sea.. Argh! It wasn’t great because he said be careful not to fall onto the rocks below! With that fact and the very wavy sea I was a bag of nerves. I whined and moaned as I tried to control the paddle board with my oar. Being panicky I failed to listen to Pete’s instructions and whilst drifting into a moored boat decided I would go back to shore. Poor old Pete was trying to help but I just didn’t get it. I watched a while from the shore then Pete came and got me. I had another go and this time I actually got up onto my feet and… Paddle boarded! Yay! However I wouldn’t say I was entirely happy. I really wanted to be able to jump off and on the board but because of the rocks was petrified…. Not ideal. I need a lake with no waves, tides or current. I need a shallow pool to jump off into….Where will I find that? I’m pleased I tried but now really want to master it.

This morning I had a message from a friend who has asked me to speak on a night her friend is hosting. She will be launching a calendar ‘inspirational women’ and wondered if I would like to say a few words. I will be announced as one of the inspiration speakers.. The calendar has been promoted on the Lorraine Kelly TV programme and Anne Diamond’s radio show. Gulp….. I know I should but I am such a wreck at speaking in front of anyone! I have been assured that it isn’t a big affair and my friend said I have a story to share…..

Thoughts have started to go back to home. I am already thinking about packing and the journey ahead of us. I have to say I am going to miss this place…it has been the longest three weeks of my life! It feels like so much has happened. When mum left on Tuesday it felt so quiet here. She was such a great support. I know I couldn’t have driven that beast of a car without her. She helped me clean, do washing and organise lots. (Yes I did cleaning and washing because I had friends arriving- a girl has to have standards you know!) it’s the first time I have spent two weeks away with her. It was lovely.

I am so pleased we invited many of our friends and family to stay. It would’ve been too big with just us here. It’s been so lovely having such happiness, laughter and joy surrounding us. There have been times when I felt frustrated and a bit lost but then spending all your time with people can be suffocating.. But how quickly that changes when they are gone.

So what now? I am going to really enjoy the next four days with my man. Next week is all planned and I aim to transition smoothly into my rituals back home. I hope to feel back to normal soon. I have a life coaching session booked for me to get focused and find my mojo again and in three weeks I will be a fully qualified health coach. Boy that year has flown by! My main aim is that I want to help other people have a better life…

I am looking forward to the autumn and the rest of the year ahead.

How is it looking for you?

Xx

When in Rome…….

The bank holiday weekend has flown by. It’s hard to believe it’s been four days since I last blogged. So much has happened starting with Friday evening.

I attended my friends Ladies Charity Garden party. As it wasn’t very warm it became a house party but all the same it was amazing. The turnout was great and everyone seemed to really enjoy themselves. There were a few surprises such as topless waiters and a pole dancer. That sounds weird but she was so skilful and elegant and the best bit was that she did a dance to a very special song that we call ‘our’ tune (First time ever I saw your face by Roberta Flack) After the dance finished and keeping composed throughout I got to have a go at being a pole dancer! It’s incredible the body strength required. I have to admit I secretly enjoyed it. The evening was topped off by the raffle. I was so excited by this as the prizes were brilliant and all donated by our friends and me. I didn’t for one minute expect to win anything- let alone four prizes! I actually put two prizes back in to the raffle as I wanted others to have a chance too. I ended up winning a night stay at Caswell House; http://www.caswellhouse.co.uk/ and, wait for it…. a pole dancing lesson! Ha ha! I am actually looking forward to it.

We don’t actually have the totals of the evening just yet but I will let you know shortly. I think we must have exceeded £350 which is amazing and all tots up my totals on my virgin giving page which still stands at £6153. I have been selling bracelets still so it will continue to rise.

Pete picked me up after the raffle had finished then we drove to Birmingham where spent the night before our early flight on Saturday morning. I love flying from Birmingham it is such an easy airport, except on Bank holiday weekends! It took us two hours to get through security and we almost missed our flight! Argh! The panic was over as we weren’t the last ones on the plane. The rest of our trip went smoothly. Pete had organised the whole thing to Rome (on my mood board of places I want to visit) and our hotel was immense. Before this we got chatting to an Italian guy who drove us to our hotel free of charge! What a nice guy….

Our hotel was beautiful and we were lucky enough to get upgraded to a junior suite. I have never seen anything like it. It was over two floors with to TV’s and overlooking the piazza outside with a fountain. We had champagne on ice waiting for us and we gladly started our stay with that!

The weather was glorious too on arrival so the afternoon was spent walking from place to place with as many stops along the way in little cafes and restaurants. We visited the Spanish steps, the Trevi fountain and more on the very first afternoon. All that walking makes you thirsty so we finished our afternoon baking in the sunshine in yet another cafe. Here we met a lovely couple from London and Essex. We got chatting and a few hours later we were still there with the sun going down.

We don’t half cram things into our little stays abroad. The next two days was spent walking everywhere sightseeing the usual things like the Pantheon, Coliseum and St Peters and the Vatican. One word – Amazing! And the change in weather didn’t even deter us. In fact it really rained quite a bit but not letting it stop us we bought his and her ponchos! We didn’t look like tourists- much! Ha ha! Throughout our visit we ate everything Italian and I indulged in ice cream and pasta and red wine… it was brilliant. And I didn’t feel guilty despite knowing my CT scan was looming in a few days.

I think my favourite thing was St Peters basilica. I rubbed St Peters feet.  The statue is beautiful and the feet have been rubbed so many times they are worn down. I crossed myself with holy water and we both had a little prayer. On our way out someone approached us and gave us a charm for a necklace and a card with a prayer on it to keep.Every little helps!

Our flight home was smooth and we arrived to bright sunshiny weather which the UK had luckily had a whole weekend of… I was so pleased for everyone that it wasn’t a wash out like our other bank holidays.

Straight home and I went to the back garden to top up my vitamin D levels. (It had to be done!) whilst Pete went straight back to work…. no rest for wicked… or saints for that matter!

Last night was lovely having our first meal back at home and it was all vegan. I miss eating like this and I instantly feel healthier. We had an early night and Pete got up at 4.30am this morning to go to work! I didn’t sleep very well after that so decided that I would spend my time visualising using every last minute preparing for today.

I got back into doing my exercise and other rituals and it feels good to be back. I put on a few pounds whilst away… easily done when all you’re eating is carbs!

Today was my ct scan. The first since February and I have been feeling really confident about it. But then I let my head take over. I can’t help but not feel over confident. I know I haven’t had any sensations inside and feel really well. I hope my gut feeling is right. When I worry I can’t tap into my intuition. My head starts thinking all sorts of things. My ct scan was easy and quick as usual. But the nurse was asking if I was still on treatment and how it was going after I had the scan. It makes me wonder if they see the scan and they know roughly from glancing at it if it looks good or not. It got me worrying that maybe she saw something. I couldn’t read her to tell if it was good news or not. She asked if I would get the results in clinic. I kept thinking why is she asking me this… is it bad news?!

But it’s done now. Nothing more I can do and I have to wait until next Tuesday for the results. Urgh.. A whole week.

I’m having an evening on my own as Pete is out to work at an event and I have got myself as much fresh food as possible. I can’t wait to tuck into it and maybe I will have an Epsom salt bath and neti pot to really spruce myself up and get me all relaxed for a night in front of the box. Ahhh I’m already relaxed…

 

Research Alerts;

I received this info on how researchers have identified a gene that, when repressed in tumour cells, puts a halt to cell growth and a range of processes needed for tumours to enlarge and spread to distant sites. It seemsreally exciting for us TNBC and other breast canSer survivors.

Click the link for more info; http://www.genengnews.com/gen-news-highlights/turning-off-cancer-s-master-regulator/81248318/

 

More news; I’ve been asked if I want to be featured in Women’s Own magazine as they are doing a piece on cancer survivors who have done/are/ doing remarkable/brave things. EEK! Plus Pete and I were featured in The Cancer Vaccine Institutes newsletter featuring my bracelets too. Little moments of stardom and recognition…. Happy.