Back from Dr Nesselhut……

I cannot believe it has been four days since I slept in my own bed and what a great night it was last night. We got home from Germany in double quick time. I have never been through Heathrow so quickly. No queue for passport control and our baggage was already going around the carousel when we walked in, then our bus came within two minutes and once in the car we were home within an hour of landing! Uh? I’m not complaining. It just made for a really great end to a lovely couple of days.

It’s always a bit odd being in Duderstadt during the days of treatment. The treatment itself only takes a few hours so there is so much time left to do what we please and let’s just say Duderstadt isn’t rammed with things to do and see. We always make the best of it and on this occasion we stayed in a lovely hotel in the centre of town which has only recently opened. I love hotels. I think if I could I would be a hotel and restaurant critic. I’m all about the little things. Well the hotel this time was trendy, funky and rammed full of extra value added bits and bobs. The best by far is their spa. Yes! A spa. Working within the beauty and relalxation therapies industry it isn’t often that I get to actually do some relaxing. Well as the weather was still very wintery we decided we would indulge ourselves. I spent time in the pool, saunas, steam room, the Himalayan salt oasis and even rubbed myself down with ice then had a whole heap of showers. Ones that were like a tropical storm which flashed with lightening and masses of cold then foggy spray! But going back to the Himalayan salt oasis. It wasn’t that hot, only about 30 degrees and behind the salt bricks  were lights that changed the mood in the room. Also known as ‘salt caves’ they are beneficial for curing chronic airway and nasal diseases. The healing properties that these salt caves provide have been effective enough to cure asthmatic patients and even those who suffer from other lung related diseases like pneumonia. In fact whilst in there not only were we drifting away to the chilled music and subtly hues but I did actually feel clearer. How perfect for me considering the canSer in my lungs! (See the picture attached) We finished our few hours of bliss with fruit and herbal teas. A perfect day and I couldn’t wait to do it again the next day after my treatment. Well I like to get my monies worth, plus it was minus 7 outside. Brrrr.

My vaccination was given to me by Dr Nesselhut senior and he was as lovely as usual. I love his little stories. Well actually they can go on a bit and as we were stretched for time it was one of those times when I wished he would give me the injection! I like to get as much info from him as possible and I am always amazed at his stories. This time he told us that he had treated a boy from Portugal who went into remission and far as they are concerned cured him of canSer. Firstly I’d like to add that immunotherapy in Portugal can be paid for by their health insurance! Wow this is so cool. How forward thinking. Anyway Dr Nesselhut was in London doing a speech as requested by Prof Dalgliesh and there was a Portuguese film crew there. They asked to film him in an interview because it turns out the little boy’s parents are well known Portuguese actors. He has done a whole interview about the treatment he provided and how in that particular case how he treated the boy. Dr Nesselhut really is amazing.


I am on day 14 of the Deepak Chopra meditation challenge and today the intention is to take steps each day toward perfect health. Well I think we would all agree that is really all I do! Ok I have days when I am bit naughty (if that’s what you want to call it) when I have cake and coffee. OK Germany is a bit of tease. It seems Sundays are huge on this tradition. One that I think we should adopt here!

I talk about sleep a lot. This is because as anyone would know, when you are under many changes and stress, sleep is the first thing to suffer and it has such a huge impact on how one feels. Staying in the Zum Lowen hotel this weekend had the best duvets, mattresses, and pillows –ok that makes a bed! But you know what I mean. It was nearly as good as the Heavenly bed I stayed in Berlin years ago. Seriously a Heavenly bed. Out of this world.  So in total I have had four great nights sleep of over ten hours a night. I thought as you got older one slept less. Well I must be regressing because I feel like a teenager who could sleep all day! This is not me complaining. I love it. My day goes better, I think better, I feel happier and I am sure my health is better for all the sleep and regeneration I get.

I have to admit my thoughts have been really buoyant for so long. I don’t have a terrible need to know what is going to happen anymore and I feel more relaxed that things may be ok. Well let’s correct that, I have a strong feeling that things will be ok. I don’t want to jinx it but that’s how I feel and it means I enjoy life more.

I have been getting ever more messages of support from friends and people how have found me on here and I am still getting more donations slowing coming in online. I am astounded. I am up to £4900 including gift aid so far! Whoop!

My friends have set a date for the Ladies Night Garden Party featuring raffle, products and services sold on the night. I reckon it will be a blast and they will make loads of money. It all helps go a long way!

I’ve yet again made more bracelets today and have a link going live on my website so that people can buy them online too. Take a look on the home page.

Pete has been getting Google alerts with news and research for triple negative. One day I will spend some time trying to sift through thrm all. It does seem not only with triple negative but other canSers too, that are getting ever closer to actual successes for individuals. I’m going to be success. I simply cannot imagine it being any other way. Not anymore. I feel so different to how I did even four months ago. Pete and I were discussing over the weekend that we feel canSer has actually had such a positive impact on our life. Who would have thought that? And how many other people feel that way? I really truly believe it has been the best thing to shake me up and wake me out of my ‘coma’ of what my life was before. Everything makes sense and I don’t feel like I am tumbling anymore. No one teaches you what life should be like because you are meant to find out for yourself and actually every stage of life we go through is ever changing. So who can teach you this? But the more I learn, read, listen and watch I realise life is so simple. And that is so funny as one of my mantras is ‘Keep life simple’.


Laughter is the best medicine

Laughter is the best medicine. All part of my ten point plan- mental fitness, staying happy is right up there in getting well and staying well. Life is far too serious even more so when you have canSer or live with someone who has canSer. I’m sure there are statistics and studies on how laughter actually increases the immune system and helps heal a person. Instead of boring you with those facts I just want to tell you from my own experience- Laughter definitely makes you feel good, full of beans and let’s you forget your worries. A bit like being absorbed in a movie, a bit of escapism and forgetting your own woes. (I do this watching The Holiday with Jude Law in it! Nudge nudge, wink wink girls- Emma and Liz you know what I mean! Ha ha) Last night Pete, myself and friends watched a live comedy show, Mickey Flanagan actually. Oh my how my cheeks hurt from laughing so much. An awesome show. I think I like him and his material so much because of my east London roots and the way Mickey talks. (No I am not from Essex Mr G! I lived on the outskirts, right on the boundaries.. I cannot express enough I am not an Essex girl even if I do act like one sometimes! 🙂 )

I laughed for nearly three hours solid. I can’t remember the last time I did that! I’m still buzzing with happiness. 

Right now I’m sat in a hotel near Heathrow airport. We fly out to Germany tomorrow for my third round of dendritic cell therapy and Newcastle disease virus. I’m already missing my kitty and being at home but I keep thinking that maybe if I’m strong enough that next month may be my last for a while. As much as I am thrilled that I am able to have this treatment going every month can be quite demanding not to mention so expensive. 

Once I have had all four vaccines I will have a ct scan to see if it’s all working still if not better than before. I can’t help but think how good I feel mentally and physically. Ok I have had days of tiredness but other than that I can’t complain. The only other thing wrong with me is my butt aching! I did a thirty minute legs routine yesterday followed with thirty minutes of yoga… Seriously ow! Squats, lunges and high kicks. Well it must have raised my metabolism as I have been hungry and eating loads since and I’m sure I’m not increasing weight!( I know weight isn’t something to worry about unless I lose a lot but old habits die hard!)

So the Bear and I will hopefully sleep really well. Better than one of our other airport hotel stays I hope. We were woken at 2am by the fire alarm. I love hotel beds. The covers are soft and luxurious and the beds are usually huge….. Must not sleep yet!!! I’m really looking forward to the hotel in Duderstadt. It’s different to our usual one- a bit of a treat with a pool and sauna. If the weather is as dreary as here then tomorrow I will enjoying the facilities! Yeha!

I’ve been getting more emails from other canSer survivors. I really do feel comforted, empowered and ever more driven to keep going. I owe it to them all! And I’m so pleased people find comfort in my blogs. Silly really as all I’m doing is writing my journal….

So things to do more of; drawing, make bracelets and sleep! Oh and cuddles with my man. Where is he?