Let’s get through today so the staycation can begin!

Today is glorious! I started my day meditating in the garden… Total bliss…

 

I had an email yesterday from the payment office at St George’s hospital where I will be having ablation. They want me to pay before I arrive. I called this morning and paid the £1191 for the procedure including one night’s stay. It’s a bit like booking a hotel! Then it just dawned on me that they have asked me to call the morning before I am due in to see if I should go in the night before. The cost of an extra night is £468! I am thinking that I may need to stay after the procedure if I get a pneumothorax, but paying for the night before?! Hmmmmm.

Today has been manic! In a good way. I am booked with clients but the phone hasn’t stopped beeping and ringing. I am having so many new leads and I can’t think why? Usually the Universe deals me what I can handle and I am guessing that maybe this is a sign that things are going to be good for the future. To be honest I have been a bit bemused by it. I am reluctant to book people in the next few weeks after my procedure as I wouldn’t want to mess them around and have to cancel. Still this is all good and I certainly need the money to pay for extra nights in a hospital! Bizarre….

I was sent a few really interesting links today that I want to share. The first is on artemesinin, better known as an anti malaria drug and a natural herb called wormwood. It is very successful in stopping canSer. I have been taking this since Dr Hembry recommended it to me in February.

Here is the article;

http://themindunleashed.org/2013/12/little-known-chinese-herb-kills-98-cancer-cells-16-hours.html

Soon I will blog exactly what I take daily and why and also other daily rituals I do to keep well. I want other canSer survivors to benefit and be and stay well.

The other article has just been sent to me by another good friend. It seems really promising for all who have curable canSer. A pill which boosts the body’s natural defences could help fight off all cancers and stop them ever returning, scientists believe.

So read on!

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/science-news/10893387/Cancer-pill-fights-disease-and-gives-lifelong-protection.html

 

I am little bit excited to finish work today because it’s my birthday this weekend and tomorrow my gorgeous hubby and I are going for a little ‘staycation’ in Cornwall. The weather is forecast to be sunny and warm and I am going to indulge in some treatments for myself and I just want to see the beauty of what England and the south west coast has to offer…Eek!

Technically as of tonight my birthday weekend starts here! Yay! Anyone that knows me knows I like to have a Mardi Gras of birthday celebrations. I’m not greedy I just like being spoilt! Ha ha…Just a few more clients then I can pack.

Ciao for now! X

 

The only thing I heard next was, ‘When you next hear my voice you will be alert and peaceful’.

The last couple of days have been pretty stress free. I haven’t had much booked in the diary and have decided to go with the flow. It has been really good. I don’t know where time goes though?!

I have spent a bit of time listening to the new meditation/visualisation cd’s that arrived and have revisited the quantum field healing that I read recently. I actually decided to do it for Pete’s ankle. He did mention that he thought it felt better.

As well as this I have been ploughing through my new books ‘The book of miracles’ and ‘Faith, hope and healing’ both by Dr Bernie Siegel. They feature real life stories of canSer survivors or relatives’ and how they dealt with their own personal situations. At the end of each story Bernie gives his reflection. It is helpful and gives me hope and makes me realise that I don’t have to be cured of canSer to live fully.

I have been really beating myself up in the last 6 months making myself believe that nothing other than being cured of canSer is good enough but when I relate back to Kris Carr, she is living with it just fine ten years on. I suppose I really thought that if it left my life completely then I could really live and plan again but that’s me missing the point again! Now is the only life I have and I cannot simply think once it goes then I can really help others. I thought to myself that once I have proved the treatments and the exercises etc that I do work then I can really help others in surviving. But I am already living proof that it’s working. Ok the scan shows that the canSer has progressed but it is still very small plus my health is in tip top condition other than that. I honestly cannot see at the present time this is going to be my demise. I have to keep remembering that one day we will die and it’s never going to be good and one of us, Pete or I, will be alone.

What has been really nice is that despite the fact that I am reading about canSer I don’t feel like canSer is ruling my life at the moment. The chemo isn’t causing me any distress or ill health (except feeling like I am vibrating and shaking sometimes- I put that down to the chemo doings it’s thang!) I have been planning lots of holidays in my diary not booking as yet but at least there is a plan. I am certainly not thinking I don’t have a long future.

I have pencilled in my diary to go and see the NLP guy, Mark Newey at the end of February. He seems really nice and I could do with some reprogramming to make me let go of past hurts and move forward fearlessly. I actually dozed off this morning listening to some guided visualisation and the only thing I heard next was, ‘When you next hear my voice you will be alert and peaceful’. I hope that it still works when you are unconscious!

It is only over one month till ‘triple negative breast cancer day’ on the 3rd march and I really would like to raise funds and contribute somehow to it. I am not sure where the money should go at present. I don’t want to work too hard on it and feel responsible for it- as I tend to get myself worked up at things failing. (I know I am working on that too!) So I have chatted to a friend who is going to meet me to see what we could do. Any ideas welcome at this stage…. I want to support Coppafeel as they are raising awareness for everyone to start checking themselves from an early age. I want to support triple negative breast canSer but not sure what charity can help that and then I want to push forward the vaccine route as I believe this has a long way to go and could be the future combined with medication.

I believe now (again in hind sight) that all the time I was hoping not to go back onto chemo that in fact this could be the thing that really socks it to ‘em. I was afraid I would feel terrible that my life would be on hold again as you really don’t feel like doing anything  when on chemo but in fact if nature has its way and maybe if God is on my side this could be the thing that knocks it out of the ball park! Please, please, please…. I have everything crossed but know if it isn’t the outcome I want that I will move onto the next thing until it is.

I have been a bit naughty recently buying lots of clothes. I don’t know why I cannot stop.. I love looking and feeling good but I have too much of everything. This is the next thing for me to work on. I drew myself some angel cards and they were all focussing on spirituality and higher consciousness.  I know ‘things’ are not important so why do want them so much?

A lovely follower sent me this link to this news about TNBC. It all sounds exciting but not sure what I can do with it next… just hope the cure for this aggressive canSer is the next one they find!

http://weill.cornell.edu/news/releases/wcmc/wcmc_2013/01_14_13.shtml

 

Off to do be a little bit creative. I haven’t had my creative juices flowing in a while.. I need a fix. X

Miracles happen every day. I go within to dissolve the pattern that created this….

Today has been a lovely day. I have been doing clients eyebrows all day. I love my job. I thought I would do a bit and get in the Christmas spirit with some Michael Buble playing. Its’ great catching up with my ladies. One day I will return to doing full time again and become a trainer as shown on my mood board. In between clients I have been wrapping pressies and doing ironing. It’s surprising how much I can get in done in a day.

I have been receiving quite a few links from friends on articles they have read about Kris carr, the Crazy Sexy author as well as info on revelations on new treatments that are soon to take the world by storm, namely dendritic cell therapy or immunotherapy. Pete sent me one really interesting one to give me a boost. All the signs are pointing in the right direction.

I woke at 4am this morning. I’m not sure why. I know I was really aching from yoga with my neck stiff but I love my bed! I hate getting up. I kept thinking of an affirmation, ‘Miracles happen every day. I go within to dissolve the pattern that created this, and now I accept a Divine Healing. And so it is!’ It’s caught up with me now. I’m pooped.

I’m loving meditation at the moment and decided to neti pot before hand. I haven’t done it in a while but I felt so much clearer once I had. A lot of slimey stuff comes out but it’s great knowing it’s not in there anymore! (Too much information? :))

I had a voicemail from my dad wanting to know what’s been happening so I called him this evening and gave him the lowdown. He started crying- the big softy. 🙂  I wasn’t all doom and gloom as I can imagine how hard it is to see and hear about someone you love going through such terrible times and feeling helpless. He quickly snapped out of that and we continued chatting rubbish to smooth it over.

Still waiting for a reply from Professor Harris re the email I sent last week. The clinic in Germany have confirmed I am to book for January. I just need to get some decent reports on my scans and I think we are all up to speed on everything. It all seems so hard.. why does it take so long to get replies from people? We all know everyone checks their mail every five minutes.

I’m already in my pyjamas. Just need the husband to come home to have some tasty nom noms and then off for an early night. I hope I sleep good tonight. Tomorrow- another day of the good stuff- HD brows on my lovely clients. 🙂

The importance of the cat in meditation

A short snippet from my day…

Today started early with meditation. I think I’m starting to get it and I can actually sit for 20 minutes..I would be even better if my kitty cat didn’t love meditating too- on my lap whilst my legs are crossed- there is only one outcome- dead legs! Bless her I’m not compaining I simply can’t believe she sits on my lap! The importance of the cat in meditation.

I had acupuncture again today and Michael says that my pulse felt agitated and decided that my energy levels needed boosting and he worked my lung points to strengthen them. Following that I had yoga with Lyn. She decided she was going to make me work. ‘All with love’ as she says. Well I certainly felt it but I feel taller and more open. I don’t think I will be able to walk tomorrow though!

This afternoon I have been preparing for dinner but also making up soups with soya beans and avocado and preparing more tonics for the next couple of days. I think I’m going to get into cooking vegan dishes as long as they are simple and rustic! ha ha!

Tonight I’m looking forward to getting curled up with my One, Night all!

Gratitude is the Attitude

I had yet another good nights sleep. We have been using frankincense on our burner in our bedroom. Frankincense really calms the diaphragm therefore forcing you to relax and breath deeply. It smells divine and really works.

Today I had a one to one yoga session with Viktoria. Her web details will available on our resources page in due course. She focussed on relaxation and meditation as well as flexibility and alignment. Where I have had surgery my right side is very tight and restricted and it has affected not only my side by my ribs and my arm but also my hips. By gaining correct posture over time will really assist in my breathing and opening up my chest and lungs. My bones clicked so much. I sounded like an old woman! As I can’t go for a few weeks Viktoria will provide me with a document showing moves for me to pratise.

Todays focus is ‘Gratitude is the attitude’. I really believe that. Gratitude puts you in a position of having instead of wanting. Notice what you have instead of focussing on what you don’t. The thing with yoga and meditation is it all focusses on love, loving and being loved. It makes so much sense. I feel calmer and less angry that’s for sure. I am so grateful for everything in my life and I don’t feel hard done by. I’m just grateful that I have such great support and the opportunity to try to fix things. I know life will never be the same again. It changed the day I was told I had canSer. Until now, I guess I have just been going through the motions but now I can really live with purpose.  What goes through my mind often is, ‘No one ever said it was going to be easy’. Whoever said it, was not wrong!

Tomorrow I don’t have any new things to try out-but I will be spending time with a good friend for the day. Can’t wait. X

Went to the hospital today to see Professor Middleton regarding Clinical trials

My, how the morning flies. I have been up since Pete went to work I have meditated, done some Davina, boy I hope she gets easier, then yoga for ten minutes. I have made my first ever green juice in our new juicer. A bit messy but I’m sure I’ll get the hang of it. today is the first day of my cleanse, including affirmations, a focus and meditation. Meditation is a tough one- but as I opened an email first thing this morning from a friend inviting me on a 21 day meditation. It couldn’t have come at a better time. Coinciding with the 21 day cleanse- perfect.

 

I went to the hospital today to see Professor Middleton to discuss clinical trials. He is a very nice chap. I have agreed to let them test my tumour to see if it has any other mutations so that I may be able to have other trial medication. It’s all options at this stage.