Tonights the Ladies Charity Garden party! Pampering, Shopping and The Raffle! Perfect!

In the news today was the headline that Cancer research UK believe there is a rise in Breast canSer in the under 50’s mainly due to an increase in the consumption of alcohol. This rages me… How do they know that for sure? They don’t. They told me they had no idea what caused the canSer I have and when asking if there is anything I could do they said no except exercise and eat a Mediterranean diet. Such sweeping statements simply puts the fear into everyone. Does it mean people will drink less alcohol- No. Because getting canSer is never going to happen to you right?! Boy we wouldn’t do anything if we listened to everything on the news!

Enough of my ranting… I’m packed for my weekend in Rome. I’m very excited but before that I’m ultra excited about tonight’s event- The Ladies Charity Garden party being held by my two good friends. There will be pampering on offer as well as clothes being sold by Sassi clothes store in Witney and then it comes to the main event -The Raffle! I’m astounded by the generosity of people’s donations. I’m donating treatments- teeth whitening and HD brows. There are haircuts, a two night stay at Caswell House, a beautiful hotel in Oxfordshire, 2 entry tickets to Crocodile World, some fizz (donated by my Bear) plus much, much more! Tres excited!

The total now for the charities is £6153. Plus today I collected another £80 from my nail lady who has been selling bracelets for me. It’s funny to think I only set a target of £2500 when I had the idea do making them! Speaking of my nail lady- I love seeing her. She makes me feel so positive. People like that are so important in your life.

This week has been so much better. I’ve been less tired and I think that this is due to having LESS sleep and getting up earlier. I don’t feel pushed for time in the mornings. In fact I have been getting all my rituals done by 9am. For me that’s good!

I’ve been reading the chapter on meditation in my book. Ian Gawler firmly believes it helps lead to recovery. By letting the body deeply relax and the thinking brain to relax we become calm and still. It helps us ‘let go’ and regain our balance. But even after meditating most people find it easier to tap into that calmness even during their normal daily lives. It makes you more mindful and grateful. I’m not saying I’m great at it. In fact my mind races a lot but I am amazed at how still I become and how quick time passes.

So counting down the days to my next scan…5 days….. I’m sure I should be working harder on visualisations but I simply cannot see disease inside. I hope I’m not in denial and ignoring my body. I feel well, confident and happy….


I received mail from a lady in the US today who is contact with another survivor here in the UK. She feels fear and emptiness and panicked having two small children. Of course I have offered to chat and counsel if possible but I find it almost odd that I was that fearful and that feeling that it must be fixed now or else I’ll run out time and that balance that it’s taking over your whole being. I wish I could give my feelings to her and let her know that time slows down when you stop trying to control everything. I hope will be able to help anyone with questions. But starting small is definitely the greatest advantage. To think that apparently I have only a year left! So much has changed but I forget what all those changes are?! I now get more love now that I ever did. The cuddles from my Bear are insurmountable! And I know now if I didn’t ever have canSer again life will always be this good… no matter what…..

So thinking of the bank holiday weekend, I hope that everyone in the south enjoys the weather. It’s looking good. For me I’m going to make a wish at the Trevi fountain, be like a Roman! (Walk in straight lines! Ha!) and eat spaghetti and drink valpolicella!

Ciao Bella! (That’s all I know! Apart from outing ‘io’ on the end of everything… Ha ha!)

The Power of Positive Thinking

As predicted Saturday night was hugely memorable and momentus occasion. I don’t think any of our guests or neighbours will forget that firework display in a hurry. I am still chuckling to myself at the banter that there was as well as the moves we were all busting moves on the dancefloor under the glitter ball in my lounge! Seriously the keeping fit and doing half an hour of exercise was covered as I danced until 3am! Where did the time go… Well they say times flies when you are having fun. Boy, my legs are still aching. Much needed fun and so grateful to everyone for making such an effort (event he ones that really hate dressing in costumes!)

Sadly though I reckon due to the season of it, the silly stressy side of me and probably the drinking and late night has taken it’s toll as I now have another cold/ chest thing. Instantly worrying that it could be something more I have been putting all my thoughts and actions into getting rid of it quickly. I want to prove that my immunity is strong. I have been practising some EFT today and I really feel it is therapeutic.

I have also been toying with seeing a reiki healer since a friend told us of an amazing story where her aunt had been given a very limited life expectancy only after having healing she was cured. Either way miracle or not I’m keen to give it a try as it really calms phycially and spiritually. The only issue I have is that it is in Essex and the recommendation fo this particular healer suggests one session a day for three days then weekly thereafter. I have put it off but I can’t help think of it at the moment. Logistically it could be difficult but maybe I should tie it in with some Christmas shopping and visiting family..?

I’m totally looking forward to having veggies today.. I’m craving it. Rich in indole 3 carbinol which is essential in boosting the immunity and cleansing.

I am pretty gutted today too as I was going to be going to HD Brows HQ today to ‘shadow’ as a trainer. I really beat myself up about it yesterday but after contacting Nilam Patel she reassured me that I could attend any course as they run weekly and I only have to give her one day notice. I wonder if it’s meant to be as I really do feel like having time at home. I feel really settled and so much love.

I am affirming to myself that by tomorrow this ‘cold’ thing I have will be gone.

In the last couple of days I have been on some forums trying to see what new information I can find and hopefully give my assistance to anyone that may need it. I found this and it really gave me a boost.

10 point plan – Power of Positive Thinking (Just stick with the truth NHS- it’s brilliant)


“Increasingly, expert attitudes have changed concerning the curability of metastatic disease and fewer clinical leaders accept the naïve view that patients with metastatic disease invariably die from it, but rather recognize the divergence of this unnuanced view from clinical reality and join the growing numbers of clinicians – who believe in curing metastatic disease.


We now know, from long-term follow-up studies and along with other accumulated data that:


• many patients will die with their disease, but not from their disease;

• some will not even die with their disease (see below);

• still others are currently long-term survivors whose ultimate fate is unknown, but therefore not assured to be from breast cancer mortality;

• still others who are predominantly stable, or at least what I call controlled-progressive – with some degree of progression (sometimes with other tumors in remediation) that can be significantly regressed upon each progression – are, on the odds, highly likely to benefit from what I call the time value of survival: namely, that outcome odds can be improved with each year of additional survival by virtue of the advance of research and clinical developments.


Gabriel Hortobagyi , one of the principal collectors of the long-term survival repository, has stated as long ago as 2001 (thats right 10 years ago): “I believe that you can cure patients with metastatic breast cancer” and, based on that data, that for metastatic disease patients “we can achieve a complete remission”. He expands on this widely misunderstood phenomenon: “My group has published about patients who have achieved a complete remission with chemotherapy and are in a progression-free complete remission 20 years later — biopsy proven” and that “for instance, I [Dr. Hortobagyi] have a patient who had a lung metastasis resected in 1968, and she never received any additional therapy. She never had a second metastasis — metastatic breast cancer by definition, pathology proven, and she’s alive and well — 32 years of disease-free survival.”


This is only with chemo, not the whole 10 point plan.


Incrediably this is not news to clinicians and researchers who deal extensively with advanced disease. Given this Clinicians should at every chance they get, give increasingly positive feedback and when they speak of advanced disease, in order to avoid the often simplistic, generally unproductive and increasingly counterfactual connotations of somehow “incurable” rather than advanced disease, and consider treating patients with advanced disease with curative intent, not as merely palliative.


As one linguist said, language can lift us, and how we speak can drive how we perceive, and also therefore how we act, so let’s not let language bully us.


And finally we need to remember that the outliers – the group of long-term survivors – of today, will be the norm of tomorrow.”