Four days left…

I’ve had a lovely morning so far… I’ve done my morning rituals best I can whilst being away from home. Coffee enema, nebuliser, taken all meds and supps and more.

I am feeling pretty good. I am still avoiding green juices however the last few days I had an epiphany. In the place of juice I had been having bicarbonate of soda, lemon and olive oil water. Then one evening in St Tropez I felt overcome with nausea. Not very classy running to the toilets and throwing up!

Then I realised I bought a bottle of apple cider vinegar with me and had barely used it. Knowing the amazing benefits of Apple cider vinegar I have been having that with my meds and supps instead. So far so good. I don’t feel nauseas and I don’t have stomach upset… Maybe that’s what I needed. Apple cider vinegar is very alkalising and calming on the digestion.

I have continued however to have migraines. Now the neurotic part of me thinks, Oh God, could this be something more sinister. Then I think of all the triggers that could be setting them off and the list is extensive, caffeine, red wine, heat, sunshine, eye tiredness, stiff neck, lack of sleep, dairy products and more.. I can tick off all of those as possible factors to my head aches. So telling the neurotic me to back down then once I get home and realign my life then we shall see.

I made another batch of GcMAF yoghurt yesterday. Because of the heat here it’s process is complete much sooner than at home. This morning it looked like set yoghurt and smelt amazing. I am really loving this stuff. It’s in the fridge now and I will test it later with some berries.

Yesterday Pete and I decided to try something I had always wanted to do.. Paddle boarding. I was really nervous.. Lets face it I’m nervous about anything new. I wasn’t given any tips or assistance by the French guy renting out the boards and was pushed on my knees off into the sea.. Argh! It wasn’t great because he said be careful not to fall onto the rocks below! With that fact and the very wavy sea I was a bag of nerves. I whined and moaned as I tried to control the paddle board with my oar. Being panicky I failed to listen to Pete’s instructions and whilst drifting into a moored boat decided I would go back to shore. Poor old Pete was trying to help but I just didn’t get it. I watched a while from the shore then Pete came and got me. I had another go and this time I actually got up onto my feet and… Paddle boarded! Yay! However I wouldn’t say I was entirely happy. I really wanted to be able to jump off and on the board but because of the rocks was petrified…. Not ideal. I need a lake with no waves, tides or current. I need a shallow pool to jump off into….Where will I find that? I’m pleased I tried but now really want to master it.

This morning I had a message from a friend who has asked me to speak on a night her friend is hosting. She will be launching a calendar ‘inspirational women’ and wondered if I would like to say a few words. I will be announced as one of the inspiration speakers.. The calendar has been promoted on the Lorraine Kelly TV programme and Anne Diamond’s radio show. Gulp….. I know I should but I am such a wreck at speaking in front of anyone! I have been assured that it isn’t a big affair and my friend said I have a story to share…..

Thoughts have started to go back to home. I am already thinking about packing and the journey ahead of us. I have to say I am going to miss this place…it has been the longest three weeks of my life! It feels like so much has happened. When mum left on Tuesday it felt so quiet here. She was such a great support. I know I couldn’t have driven that beast of a car without her. She helped me clean, do washing and organise lots. (Yes I did cleaning and washing because I had friends arriving- a girl has to have standards you know!) it’s the first time I have spent two weeks away with her. It was lovely.

I am so pleased we invited many of our friends and family to stay. It would’ve been too big with just us here. It’s been so lovely having such happiness, laughter and joy surrounding us. There have been times when I felt frustrated and a bit lost but then spending all your time with people can be suffocating.. But how quickly that changes when they are gone.

So what now? I am going to really enjoy the next four days with my man. Next week is all planned and I aim to transition smoothly into my rituals back home. I hope to feel back to normal soon. I have a life coaching session booked for me to get focused and find my mojo again and in three weeks I will be a fully qualified health coach. Boy that year has flown by! My main aim is that I want to help other people have a better life…

I am looking forward to the autumn and the rest of the year ahead.

How is it looking for you?


It’s weird hearing yourself on radio!

This morning was a very early start. What with appointments at hospital and such, I agreed to speak to BBC radio Oxford about me and my story, at 8am this morning. That meant getting up at 6.30am. I had to drag myself out of bed as I didn’t sleep well at all. Not sure why, just one of those things.

I have to be honest I was dreading it a little bit. That’s how I get when I’m nervous. Silly really because as soon as I arrived at the studios I was welcomed by the producer of the show and Malcolm Boyden, the presenter. They were both very nice and I immediately felt at ease. I discussed my story with Malcolm at length and then before I knew it is was over. What on earth was I worried? It makes you wonder how many people put things off just because of the way they think it might go. The mind gets in the way of letting you live. I knew in my heart it was right to go along and chat but there was a little devil on my shoulder trying to tell me not to go. I’m very thankful that I do not listen to this little chap on my shoulder that often. If only I could shut it up when it worries me about the future or more importantly when a scan is approaching. My friend said to me I just need to think of the scan results as information that I take away and work on. It doesn’t matter what they say just as long as I know I feel ok in myself. She’s right. It all goes back to not worrying about what may or may not happen.

I have had a lot of information given to me following my Skype meeting with Cancer Options earlier this week. It was filled with great advice and some changes and additions to supplements and the introduction of hyperbaric oxygen therapy. As we know cancer doesn’t like oxygenated blood therefore having pure oxygen inhaled would really give it a run for its money.

This is how it works. As tumours rapidly grow and expand, the network of blood vessels bringing oxygen to the cells cannot keep up, leaving cells starved of oxygen. This would kill normal cells but cancer cells switch on a protein called HIF which in turn switches on other molecules in the cell. This cascade encourages new blood vessels to form around and into the tumour helping the tumour to adapt by using alternative methods to produce energy.

A cell generates energy to grow and survive inside tiny power stations called mitochondria by using oxygen to fuel chemical reactions.

Oxygen levels are monitored by a protein called CHCHD4. When oxygen levels fall below a critical level, this protein activates the HIF response. Lab studies have shown stopping HIF response stops cancer cells from growing and developing blood vessels.

When too much CHCHD4 was switched on in oxygen-starved cancer cells, large amounts of HIF were activated. This kick started a sequence of events that allowed cells to survive in low oxygen. A lot of work is currently being done to develop drugs to interfere with this signalling sequence which allows cancer cells to utilise hypoxia in this fashion.

It is believed that tumour hypoxia contributes significantly to treatment failure and relapse among cancer patients because cells in the hypoxic zones of solid tumours resist traditional chemotherapy for at least two reasons: first, most antitumor agents cannot penetrate beyond 50-100 micrometers from capillaries, thereby never reaching those cells in the hypoxic regions. Secondly, the lower nutrient and oxygen supply to cells in the hypoxic zones of tumours cause them to divide more slowly than their well oxygenated counterparts, so hypoxic tumour cells exhibit greater resistance to chemotherapies and radiation which target rapidly dividing cells or require oxygen for efficacy.

Hypoxia also contributes to the invasive and metastatic potential of aggressive cancers by

promoting genetic instability and accelerating the accumulation of mutations that can ultimately give rise to drug resistance.

Recent research is investigating the theory that low oxygen levels can be a mitigating factor in developing cancer and also in cancer metastasising.

I have heard a lot about this but figured I would need to travel for it but it turns out there is a hyperbaric chamber only a mile away from where I live. This is great news and what’s more it is cheap because it is a registered charity. Having spoken to them today it will be simple for me to get going with this should I choose to do it. I simply need my GP to sign a form then I can get cracking.


I had a lovely reflexology treatment yesterday. If you haven’t tried it I would highly recommend it. If you are local then I suggest you to go the therapist featured on the resources page. She is amazing. I left feeling chilled and thoroughly worked out! Can’t wait for my next one…