Tonights the Ladies Charity Garden party! Pampering, Shopping and The Raffle! Perfect!

In the news today was the headline that Cancer research UK believe there is a rise in Breast canSer in the under 50’s mainly due to an increase in the consumption of alcohol. This rages me… How do they know that for sure? They don’t. They told me they had no idea what caused the canSer I have and when asking if there is anything I could do they said no except exercise and eat a Mediterranean diet. Such sweeping statements simply puts the fear into everyone. Does it mean people will drink less alcohol- No. Because getting canSer is never going to happen to you right?! Boy we wouldn’t do anything if we listened to everything on the news!

Enough of my ranting… I’m packed for my weekend in Rome. I’m very excited but before that I’m ultra excited about tonight’s event- The Ladies Charity Garden party being held by my two good friends. There will be pampering on offer as well as clothes being sold by Sassi clothes store in Witney and then it comes to the main event -The Raffle! I’m astounded by the generosity of people’s donations. I’m donating treatments- teeth whitening and HD brows. There are haircuts, a two night stay at Caswell House, a beautiful hotel in Oxfordshire, 2 entry tickets to Crocodile World, some fizz (donated by my Bear) plus much, much more! Tres excited!

The total now for the charities is £6153. Plus today I collected another £80 from my nail lady who has been selling bracelets for me. It’s funny to think I only set a target of £2500 when I had the idea do making them! Speaking of my nail lady- I love seeing her. She makes me feel so positive. People like that are so important in your life.

This week has been so much better. I’ve been less tired and I think that this is due to having LESS sleep and getting up earlier. I don’t feel pushed for time in the mornings. In fact I have been getting all my rituals done by 9am. For me that’s good!

I’ve been reading the chapter on meditation in my book. Ian Gawler firmly believes it helps lead to recovery. By letting the body deeply relax and the thinking brain to relax we become calm and still. It helps us ‘let go’ and regain our balance. But even after meditating most people find it easier to tap into that calmness even during their normal daily lives. It makes you more mindful and grateful. I’m not saying I’m great at it. In fact my mind races a lot but I am amazed at how still I become and how quick time passes.

So counting down the days to my next scan…5 days….. I’m sure I should be working harder on visualisations but I simply cannot see disease inside. I hope I’m not in denial and ignoring my body. I feel well, confident and happy….


I received mail from a lady in the US today who is contact with another survivor here in the UK. She feels fear and emptiness and panicked having two small children. Of course I have offered to chat and counsel if possible but I find it almost odd that I was that fearful and that feeling that it must be fixed now or else I’ll run out time and that balance that it’s taking over your whole being. I wish I could give my feelings to her and let her know that time slows down when you stop trying to control everything. I hope will be able to help anyone with questions. But starting small is definitely the greatest advantage. To think that apparently I have only a year left! So much has changed but I forget what all those changes are?! I now get more love now that I ever did. The cuddles from my Bear are insurmountable! And I know now if I didn’t ever have canSer again life will always be this good… no matter what…..

So thinking of the bank holiday weekend, I hope that everyone in the south enjoys the weather. It’s looking good. For me I’m going to make a wish at the Trevi fountain, be like a Roman! (Walk in straight lines! Ha!) and eat spaghetti and drink valpolicella!

Ciao Bella! (That’s all I know! Apart from outing ‘io’ on the end of everything… Ha ha!)