Spartans ready! Aroo Aroo!

Following the distant healing on Thursday at the time the picture of me was to be shown to john of god I mediated so that I can feel truly open to any sensations. I felt incredibly relaxed and the time went very quickly. During the meditation my hands became numb and after I had incredibly heat in my mid back area. I tried my best not to be creating things in my own mind and I am sure I felt that. I won’t know until after the weekend when I should receive an email stating which entity John of God said worked through him to heal me.  Only time can tell now…

Bank holiday weekend- the last until Christmas. To be honest I could have easily stayed at home. After having been in Germany and feeling poorly all week I felt time in my casa would have been perfect but it’s not all about what I want!

So we headed to not so sunny Brighton on Friday night, it was moody and wet and continued to be this way on and off throughout Saturday. I had a lingering headache and convinced it was from the zometa infusion. It finally went yesterday, thank goodness.

I noticed also my weight had dropped below my usual weight. I have been eating the same but clearly being ill had stripped me of some of my goodness! Pete heard this and has been feeding me up ever since.

During Saturday, as no boating was to be had, we mulled around The Lanes in Brighton and stumbled across a new juice bar. I was thrilled and immediately bought one of my own recipes; pear, mint, celery, cucumber and orange juice-Delicious!

Sunday was the long awaited Spartan race for charity. The boys, one girl and Pete all congregated amongst 1500 other contenders. There was a great hype and I felt excited for them but also pleased I hadn’t entered! What was thought to be a 5K obstacle race, turned into a 10K steep hill, dangerous obstacle course that took over two hours to complete. They all looked a state but were still smiling at the end. I was so proud of them and they are continuing to raise money even now. Anyone who wishes to donate please click the link;



Unfortunately prior to the race Pete slipped on the boat pontoon and cracked his knee and shin. He battled on however today his leg looks like a kebab on a spit! We have cut the bank holiday short and headed home and hospital is the way forward. I’m sure he’ll mend. He’s being very brave- bless him.

I am hugely touched at how the team pulled together and helped each other out. I’m very proud and thank every one of them for doing it for charity. Big hugs all round.

I’m feeling better in myself right now I just need to get back to exercising every day and really get into my routine. I’m at hospital again tomorrow for blood tests then back on chemo tablets … Time flies….

Light hearted and happy…. :)

Yesterday was one of my better days. I felt bright and breezy. I didn’t experience any tiredness and I felt rally buoyant.  I put it all down to the food and detox that I have been having. I didn’t sleep much last night and when I woke at 2.30am my mind was whirring. I couldn’t stop thinking of all sorts of things. One thing swimming around was the thought of becoming a health coach. I am really interested in training with the integrative institute of nutrition. The course is a yearlong and it’s mainly an online course. I feel it would hugely benefit me and my family and of course other people of all backgrounds but mainly canSer survivors.

I felt really excited generally and lots of happy thought were flowing. I even laid there and did a long visualisation session too. For the first time in ages my chest area really pulsated and had a huge warmth to it. I believe that toxins were making me feel bad physically and mentally and I think that becoming weakened in that sense made healing harder in every sense of the word. I now feel a real rejuvenation and know everything is going to be ok. I had a real strong feeling that everything is going to be ok.

Actually yesterday was the first time in ages when I didn’t want to think about canSer. It needn’t be part of my daily life as I only have now to enjoy. Anything else is a bonus. I like feeling like this and hope it stays….

I would ordinarily feel grumpy at only having four hours sleep and I am sure I will be wrecked later but I don’t feel grumpy. I feel light hearted. I have so much to be thankful for and I really appreciate the love and support that I receive. I feel inspired to get better and know more than ever that the body is an amazing thing that can surely show me the way. I aim to stay clean of toxins for as long as possible.

I am continuing to make more wish charity bracelets and soon there will be a whole new bundle for sale. I will keep you posted.

In the meantime we need to raise more funds for the boys and girl from local company VTUK. They are going to be competing in the Spartan Race on Sunday 25th August all in aid of the two chosen charities, Breast Cancer Breakthrough and The Cancer Vaccine Institute.

The Spartan race is a normal 5k run. It has fire, mud, obstacles and is generally tough going but Peter my husband and his colleagues are prepared to battle on to show support and raise all important funds. To show your support please click the link and make a donation;

They must be mad doing the Spartan race but it’s for charity!

Last night my Bear and I got our heads together and reviewed all six scans I have had in the last year. We have now deduced that I have two nodules in my left lung and three in my right. They increased in size quite a bit last year and by February this year reduced dramatically. By May the radiologist didn’t mention much other than they had gone in my lymph nodes and the ones in my lungs were ‘too small to assess’. On yesterdays scan report another radiologist has said that the right nodules have increased since the last scan. One of them being 8mm to 9mm. The ‘contralateral lesions’ I now understand to mean the ones in the left lung, have not increased nor decreased in size. We both feel that’s a huge relief and a great outcome really although a bit frustrating as I was so keen, obviously, to have seen another reduction in size. It sends the head into a spin wondering what have I don’t differently for it not have had a better outcome.

Well no point worrying but I do. I do get concerned that forever more I will have to think about what happens next. I know I have to live in the now. But everyone else around me can go to bed at night knowing that they are well. Or at least they think are.  I should see it as good thing that I get the opportunity to make amendments and improvements so that I live the healthiest life possible feeling totally aware.

I posted my good news on facebook and have been completely inundated with well wishers. I have received over 160 people comments and acknowledgements  as well as personal messages from complete strangers that made me feel just brilliant, saying how my posts and blogs help them and have motivated them to live better as well as words of strength and to stay strong and how brave I am being. I don’t feel brave and courageous. I feel sometimes like nothing can stop me and other times so confused about what’s it all about? I even have moments of, ‘Why me?’ Not very often but I am only human after all. I understand life means death but not yet….. Pete unequivocally knows I will be alive for at least another 15 years doing what I am doing and that by then there will be a cure.

I just want thank everyone for their support. It keeps me going and I want to a better person for everyone else.


Today I got on as normal and have to admit I really enjoyed my morning juice. I used strawberries, parsley, spinach, ginger, cucumber and celery. Mmm. It was lurvely!

After my clients this afternoon I had an acupuncture session and had a new experience. The therapist used moxa as a form of acupuncture. This ancient art using moxa (also known as mugwort or Artemisa Vulgaris/Artemisia Leaf) is called the “doctor’s grass.” Moxibustion (the burning of moxa) is believed to emit “yang” (dynamic and active) energy when burnt. Moxibustion works so well because it allows the body to absorb the energy emitted by the moxa. By holding the moxa stick over the acupuncture points, the body is able to take in, store and slowly release this energy into the body. It felt warm and comforting and the points she used them are for the digestion, liver and kidneys. She felt that as these areas get battered by me having chemo they could do with some TLC. She has given me a moxa stick to use at home and I have to rope Pete into doing it for me maybe daily during the two weeks I am taking chemo. I feel really tired this afternoon but I think I still need to catch up on sleep. I started my next round of chemo today… only 13 more days then another cycle over- side effect free.

Charity Fundraising
Pete and his colleagues from VTUK are going to be doing some charity work to raise more funds for my chosen charities. On Sunday 25th August eight of his team, including Pete and one girl, are going to be doing the Spartan Race. It’s going to be tough!  Spartan Race, the global leader in Obstacle Racing since 2005, was designed by seven insane ultra athletes and a Royal Marine. It’s an obstacle course race that is designed to test your resilience, strength, stamina, quick decision making skills, and ability to laugh in the face of adversity. They tried to get me to do it but I don’t think i am up for it! I am really pleased for them but they aim to raise a £1000 each and are busily trying to get donations.  If you would like to donate please click on the link here:

I’m so proud of them all and I know it will be really hard but so much fun. I’ll be there egging them on for sure.

One more client to go then I’m done for the day. Pete’s on his third day of juicing and he’s still going strong.. a raw meal for me I feel.  Night Y’all.